I've had a weird week. Like a really, really weird week. It really didn't start during the week though. No, instead, it started last weekend. Saturday to be more direct. I won't go too much into details about things as they are definitely more personal and between myself, my girlfriend and my therapist. But what made my week weird is I had dej\u00e1 v\u00fa almost everyday for about 5 or 6 days in a row. However, it was more than that I realized. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I had dreams about these moments and situations! <\/p>\n\n\n\n
And I know I did because I had very specific moments happen in life that I know I had a dream about it before hand. And truthfully, shit freaked me out and had me full of various different emotions and even full of this energy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I needed a way to get it all out of my system.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So I started to write a song about it on Thursday to be able to capture all of it freshly in and on my mind. I sorta cheekily called it \"Dreams From God\". The working lyrics so far are just as personal but coded in a little more poetry as I continue to try and do. I do feel like these are some of my best though, truthfully. Musically, I am continuing in a similar direction as \"ICE Melt (Shine Sun! Shine!)\" albeit, with some more Killing Joke influence in there.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I haven't worked in any vocals as of yet and I'm still trying to think of how I might want to even do them. I thought maybe, perhaps of just blatantly ripping of Killing Joke and trying to mimic Jaz Coleman but also that doesn't really entirely right.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Especially right now when I am in a stasis of wanting to continue in search of this \"electronic emo-noise' sound. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I've mentioned in an interview that coming out of \"songs of post-apocalypse yearnings\" I really learned about my own creative process. And with this I'm really focusing on doing what I know but also trying some new things all the while trying to inhibit myself to be able to try and get the best out of myself. It's the self-awareness that I know I don't make good<\/em> music but I know that I still am making music and thus art<\/em> and to quote the Boulet Brothers \"Drag is art and art is subjective.\" So if I'm making art, I want to make the best possible art I can make. I want to improve what I can do and make something with the things I'm creating even if it's only ever for my own ears. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Art can and should<\/em> be made just to be made so why not just make the best art I can right? <\/p>\n\n\n\n I am including a YouTube link of me figuring out the guitar for this song as well as a zip file of the (unfinished) instrumentation of the song. Below this post too I am including the lyrics just to let anyone in just a tiny bit on this creative process. <\/p>\n\n\n\n If you read any of this or this far, thank you so much for not just your support but for taking the time out of your day to read this. I truly appreciate you and I am excited to see where this song goes and perhaps sharing more as I work on it. I don't know if I will release it as soon as its finished but I definitely will post it up here as a first sorta look.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Wendy Venus<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dreams From God: <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I've had a weird week. Like a really, really weird week. It really didn't start during the week though. No, instead, it started last weekend. Saturday to be more direct. I won't go too much into details about things as they are definitely more personal and between myself, my girlfriend and my therapist. But what […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":21242,"featured_media":705,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"activitypub_content_warning":"","activitypub_content_visibility":"","activitypub_max_image_attachments":4,"activitypub_interaction_policy_quote":"anyone","activitypub_status":"federated","footnotes":""},"categories":[8,47,10],"tags":[54,59,56,55,57,4,15,41,3,19,58],"class_list":["post-703","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-venus-426","category-venus-426_music","category-writings","tag-dreams","tag-electronic-emo-noise","tag-jaz-coleman","tag-killing-joke","tag-lyrics","tag-music","tag-poem","tag-poetry","tag-venus-426","tag-writing","tag-zip-file"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/wendysnoisenook.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/703","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/wendysnoisenook.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/wendysnoisenook.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wendysnoisenook.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/21242"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wendysnoisenook.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=703"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/wendysnoisenook.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/703\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":713,"href":"https:\/\/wendysnoisenook.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/703\/revisions\/713"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wendysnoisenook.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/705"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/wendysnoisenook.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=703"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wendysnoisenook.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=703"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wendysnoisenook.noblogs.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=703"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
YouTube – https:\/\/youtu.be\/-IEZXFdkFvE?si=6HjQQGFv7qfqkcoa<\/a>
Zip file – https:\/\/mega.nz\/file\/UmJQCbiJ#K0cZ6Nq8oMDZcmKyLOCHkYAxyXA4i65_Itpv8TJNegU<\/a>
Lyrics:
I've been having dreams from God lately<\/em>
I don't know why<\/em>
I'm a fallen daughter<\/em>
Rejecting the love of her father<\/em>
Oh what disease is running through my mind<\/em>
Will I see the end?<\/em>
I've been having visions from God lately<\/em>
Why all this dej\u00e1 v\u00fa<\/em>?
If you're there, answer me!<\/em>
I forgot how to love<\/em>
I forgot how to care<\/em>
Give me a sign<\/em>
That we'll make it out alive<\/em>
Please somebody help me<\/em>
Please somebody save me<\/em>
Why do I have to pick myself up<\/em>
Why did I separate me from you?<\/em>
What I wouldn't give<\/em>
Just to have one more chance<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n