I've had a weird week. Like a really, really weird week. It really didn't start during the week though. No, instead, it started last weekend. Saturday to be more direct. I won't go too much into details about things as they are definitely more personal and between myself, my girlfriend and my therapist. But what made my week weird is I had dejá vú almost everyday for about 5 or 6 days in a row. However, it was more than that I realized.

I had dreams about these moments and situations!

And I know I did because I had very specific moments happen in life that I know I had a dream about it before hand. And truthfully, shit freaked me out and had me full of various different emotions and even full of this energy.

I needed a way to get it all out of my system.

So I started to write a song about it on Thursday to be able to capture all of it freshly in and on my mind. I sorta cheekily called it "Dreams From God". The working lyrics so far are just as personal but coded in a little more poetry as I continue to try and do. I do feel like these are some of my best though, truthfully. Musically, I am continuing in a similar direction as "ICE Melt (Shine Sun! Shine!)" albeit, with some more Killing Joke influence in there.

I haven't worked in any vocals as of yet and I'm still trying to think of how I might want to even do them. I thought maybe, perhaps of just blatantly ripping of Killing Joke and trying to mimic Jaz Coleman but also that doesn't really entirely right.

Especially right now when I am in a stasis of wanting to continue in search of this "electronic emo-noise' sound.

I've mentioned in an interview that coming out of "songs of post-apocalypse yearnings" I really learned about my own creative process. And with this I'm really focusing on doing what I know but also trying some new things all the while trying to inhibit myself to be able to try and get the best out of myself. It's the self-awareness that I know I don't make good music but I know that I still am making music and thus art and to quote the Boulet Brothers "Drag is art and art is subjective." So if I'm making art, I want to make the best possible art I can make. I want to improve what I can do and make something with the things I'm creating even if it's only ever for my own ears.

Art can and should be made just to be made so why not just make the best art I can right?

I am including a YouTube link of me figuring out the guitar for this song as well as a zip file of the (unfinished) instrumentation of the song. Below this post too I am including the lyrics just to let anyone in just a tiny bit on this creative process.

If you read any of this or this far, thank you so much for not just your support but for taking the time out of your day to read this. I truly appreciate you and I am excited to see where this song goes and perhaps sharing more as I work on it. I don't know if I will release it as soon as its finished but I definitely will post it up here as a first sorta look.

Wendy Venus

Dreams From God:

YouTube – https://youtu.be/-IEZXFdkFvE?si=6HjQQGFv7qfqkcoa

Zip file – https://mega.nz/file/UmJQCbiJ#K0cZ6Nq8oMDZcmKyLOCHkYAxyXA4i65_Itpv8TJNegU

Lyrics:

I've been having dreams from God lately
I don't know why
I'm a fallen daughter
Rejecting the love of her father
Oh what disease is running through my mind
Will I see the end?

I've been having visions from God lately
Why all this dejá vú?
If you're there, answer me!
I forgot how to love
I forgot how to care
Give me a sign
That we'll make it out alive

Please somebody help me
Please somebody save me
Why do I have to pick myself up
Why did I separate me from you?
What I wouldn't give
Just to have one more chance